Saturday, May 31, 2008
i was hurt once again
why must you do this to me again?
i seriously thought you changed. from the way you sms me, the tone and everything. i know it was different. i could see that effort was put in. it no longer felt like your replies were like a chore to you cos you have no choice but to reply me as much as you dont want to. i could really sense the joy in you wanting to sms me. i really felt that we were back to the old times. but now you brought me back to reality once again.
you showed two sides of you today. i really hate it when you are tired. you just totally spoil the mood.
we were talking very happily. i had so much more happy things to tell you. but just one word of tired, you totally swithed off. i know you were not listening. or maybe just not interested anymore. short attention span on me?! woah!
i am so disappointed in you. first week of holidays has almost ended. you have went out with your class, HC and cheer people.. apparently, everyone but ME! you have ever thought of leaving out some time for me. ever thought that i wanted to be asked on a date too. ever though that i needed more care and attention. i am always the last person on your list. i dont want to be he last! i hate to be placed last in your heart! sobbbs.. =( =( if i am significant to you, why give me false hope that you are doing something then disappoint me again. why give me the feeling that you want to win my heart back, that you want to care about this relationship and salvage it before its too late, yet again do things that shows me that you dont seem to care about me?! WHICH IS THE REAL SIDE OF YOU??? arghhh...
you dozed off again while talking to me.. is talking on the phone so much to ask from you when you dont even have the time to go put with me. all you do is out having fun with your VJ friends. i hang up in anger. you dont even bother calling me back. even after you woke up, you just went out with your friends. all the way till night when you reach home. after all the fun that you had with your friends before thinking about how am i after another wound stabbed by you. and all you did was one sms to ask me what am i doing..i replied you didnt. guess you dozed off again.. not even a word of sorry.. so what does this mean?
i am really loss for what to do..
just continue being the inferior self..Labels: will there be an end to this?
poured out @11:41 PM
